today,

i registered

my boy

for

e.F.y.

gulp.

binky breakdown.

"hey griff, hand me your bink."

"griff, hand me both of your binks."

regret.

oh, i'm com'n for ya.

dead sprint.

"thank you. i'll take that."

alllll better.

today....1 picture, every hour.

7:30am.

8:30am.

9:30am.

10:30am.

11:30am.

12:30pm.

1:30pm.

2:30pm.

3:30pm.

4:30pm.

5:30pm.

6:30pm.

7:30pm.

it was a good day.

a letter of clarification.

dear blog readers.

i need to clarify something today.

in my previous post i rambled on and on

about my love for my people magazine.

i failed to do so for my father in law,

whom i love dearly, is a wonderful man,

and who does a lot for my family. i would never want

him to feel that i was calling him out for

not renewing a stupid magazine.(well, not stupid i still love it)

sometimes my "humor" can be taken out of context.

misunderstood, if you will.

the mag has been in my life for 13 years.

my FIL has been in my life for 18.

he wins.

i'm sorry.

love.

emily aka. big mouth.

today i have something very sad to share with you.

its disturbing news to say the least.

at first, i didn't want to believe it,

but today, throught the mail, it has been confirmed.

after 13 years.....

my father in law did not

renew my "people magazine" subscription for my birthday.

friday was always a little more special to me because

of my special delivery.

i feel like i've lost a friend.

i had a certain way that i looked at it.

first, just a flip through to look at the pictures,

then the pics and pans,

next the books and movie reviews,

and so on and so on....

leaving the puzzler for last.

i made it last all week.

this may sound trivial to you

but it was the one thing that was all mine.

boo.

every friday for 13 years!

today i walked to the mailbox with no purpose other than to fetch the bills.

no spring in my step.

no song in my heart.

nothing to look forward too.

i'm not sure what i did to deserve this.

but it must have been pretty bad.

boo.

hoo.

16 years ago today....

i said yes.

yes to a little 2 bedroom apartment.

yes to working full time while you went to school.

yes to a baby.

yes to a "fixer upper".

yes to 3 more babies.

yes to 10 happy years in kaysville.

yes to many highs and a few lows.

yes to a career move.

yes to another move.

yes to another baby.

yes to more love than most days i really deserve.

i said yes to it all.

and i'd do it again in a heartbeat.

happy 16th engagement anniversary.

happy love day.

oh. my favorite over rated holiday is here again. yay!

enter debbie downer. wah, wah.

while my mind should be fixated on my hubs,

its actually racing with thoughts of

class parties, what to get the kids,

what yummy dinner to make that everyone will love etc. etc. etc.

i do like valentines, i do.

really.

its just that sometimes it feels made up.

and i know a lot of that is the pressure i put on myself.

oh well.

happy love day everyone.

i love you all.

nevermind!

my hubby just told me he hired cleaning ladies for today!

shut the front door!

i freaking love this holiday!

its the best!

hmmm. apparently i can be bought.